Friday, June 19, 2009

MORE guystuffs

Found out who Ryan likes - Kylie. She told me that he asked her out last Friday and she said no (even though she really likes him), and he asked her again on Monday and she said no. He asked her yesterday, then she told me about it because she wanted to say yes but only if I was ok with it. I told her I was, and now i THINK they're together. Anyway, I'm more or less over Ryan now xD.

I'm an idiot. We took Daniel home after school as usual, but I kept playing with his hand - putting mine over his, stuff like that - and whenever he looked at me I would smile and look away. When we were about halfway between school and his house he whispered to me "Go on, if you want to", and then we held hands for a while, let go for a bit coz my sister turned around in her seat to talk to us, and when she finally decided to be quiet and turn around we held hands again. When we were just pulling up to his house he squeezed my hand to say goodbye, just like he did when we were going out. I love the way he makes me feel, it's like nothing else matters anymore apart from me and him. I REALLY wanna go out with him again, but he's going through this moody phase where he thinks he's stuffed everything up and shouldn't be in a relationship. I might ask him out anyway, just so that he knows that I'm willing if he is.

School was awesome today! Computer teacher and I arguing about footy, as usual :P. Lauren & I presented our English oral presentation today (finally) and everyone thinks we were really good. Got maths results - 100% for the advanced algebra test, 89% for the semester. Hopefully should get common test back next week. Science Human Bio test - 72% - not too bad, considering our teacher sets super-hard tests!

Can finally relax and enjoy the weekend!

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Wednesday, June 17, 2009

FallingApart

God, my life sucks.

I know that some of you will be like "OMG your life does not suck, what about all those underprivileged kids who would do ANYTHING for your life?" I'm with you on that, it's just i haven't had a low like this in years, if ever.

My parents have spilt up. Dad's still living with us, but we don't know for how much longer. Not much more to report on that front, coz I haven't a clue about what's going on.

Ryan said he doesn't like anyone as more than a friend :(. Oh well, at least it's a straight answer I guess. I'm still falling for him though, and Daniel too. Grr..

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Friday, June 12, 2009

Movies :) :S :(

Movies today = FANTASTIC

Saw State of Play - an alright movie, but so much fun! Went with Kristi, Jess, Ryan, Michell, Daniel, Trent and Keegan. We got the whole cinema to ourselves!

Kristi, Jess & Keegan snuck in a big bottle of ginger beer, a 2 litre Pepsi and lots of lollies :).

We sat in the back row, as always. Original seating order - Keegan, Jess, Kristi, Mitchell, me, Ryan, Trent, Daniel. We swapped seats a few times before the movie started, and it ended up being - Jess, Keegan, Kristi, Mitchell, Ryan, me, Trent, Daniel.

There were a few gory shooting scenes, which I used an excuse to rest my head on Ryan's shoulder :P. Trent tried to get Ryan to put his arm around me but he wouldn't :(.

After a while Trent and Daniel swapped seats - Daniel ended up holding my hand, and I was leaning on his shoulder by the end of the movie. Mitchell was giving us a hard time about it, resulting in him almost catching Daniel with his hand on my arse.

It was so funny, we started the movie with one couple there (Mitchell & Kristi), and ended with three (Mitchell & Kristi, Jess & Keegan, me & Daniel).

I'm really confused now!! I'm positive I don't like Daniel as more than a friend anymore (but for some stupid reason i told him that I did), but being with him, it feels so...right! I really like Ryan, but it's pretty obvious he doesn't feel the same about me.

I know nothing more is gonna happen with me & Daniel coz he told me so, and I'm fine with that. But Ryan? Like I said, I'm pretty sure he doesn't like me in that way, but I really want him :S.

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FAIL.

Had a debate in S&E today - me and Trent against Kylie, on the topic "that global warming is completely natural". Trent and I took the affirmative, Kylie the negative. We flogged her! The class voted on the winning team, we got 17 votes to Kylie's 4! It can't even be because of popularity that we won, coz all 3 of us have the same group of close friends, and everyone else sees us as mega-geeks. xD.

Our group's going to the movies tomorrow. Ryan's going, so I took the chance to ask him if he wanted to go as a couple. He said no :(. Here's how the convo went:
Me: I can go to the movies tomorrow!
Ryan: Awesome!
*Random chatting between us about the movie, who's going, etc.*
Me: Umm...while we're on the topic of the movies, is there any chance you want to go as a couple?
Ryan: Umm....no thanks, sorry but I don't really feel like going out with anyone at the moment
Me: Oh okay
*Awkward silence*

So yeah, Kylie fai;ls at debates and I fail with guys

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Monday, June 8, 2009

AHAHAHA its a shadow :)


Don't mind me, slightly hypo right now xD
Just felt like sharing this pic, seeing as there's nothing really to write about. School was boring, no news with Ryan, and nothing else is happening in my life right now. Oh, well apart from the MS Readathon - I've read 5 books already, and none of them are exactly short!

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Sunday, June 7, 2009

I'mTurningIntoAGirl!!!

Well, I'm starting to think like one. I always thought girls were stupid for caring so much about what guys think of them, but you know what? I'm exactly like that now. xD.

STILL no answer from Ryan. Getting very impatient. If he hasn't answered by Tuesday, I'll ask him again - face to face this time.

Kylie told me something interesting at school on Friday - she told me that she's pretty sure he will say yes. Kylie doesn't say stuff like that without reason, so I'm hoping that she's right. :/

Speaking of Kylie - the two of us & Vicky went mad at school! We were walking around everywhere singing 'Our Song' by Taylor Swift at the top of our lungs! I felt a bit out of place, because those two are amazing singers and I suck, but I'm way louder than them. xD. Oh well, it was awesome fun :).

Have you ever noticed, Taylor Swift's a hypocrite! In 'White Horse' she says "I'm not a princess", but in 'Love Story' she says "You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess'! What's with that!

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Thursday, June 4, 2009

AhhDepressingThoughtsAreTakingOver!!

Technology hates me. I screwed up two computers during SOSE today, and had to end up just looking on Vicky's screeen coz the teacher didn't trust me to have my own computer after that. It wasn't even my fault! A fuse or wire blew up the first computer, and on the second the keyboard stopped working!

Ryan STILL hasn't given me a definite answer about the movies! It's getting really annoying! I don't wanna seem desperate or anything, but a straight answer would be nice!

God my group in drama is a mess. Only 3 of us turned up for rehersals today, and a few people have quit! So I'm now a single parent in our play, which is fine by me. Who needs a guy anyway? I know I'm going on about Ryan and all, but I don't NEED him, I WANT him. See the difference?

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