"This Love Is Difficult
... but it's real"
Or at least, I hope it is.
Listening to: The Way I Loved You by Taylor Swift
Gosh, anyone would think I'm obsessed with Taylor Swift or something xD
That's about right at the moment. Daniel and his girlfriend broke up. You would think that I would be sad for him, or happy that me and him may have a chance, wouldn't you? Well, you're wrong. I don't feel anything at all. I don't know what it is I feel for Daniel, but it's not love. At least, it's not love the way I love Mitchell. More like love for a best friend, combined with some stupid childish crush. If I'm feeling anything at all, I'm scared. I don't know if I'm even ready for a relationship yet - wait, no, that's a lie. I'm perfectly ready for a boyfriend, I just don't know if I want one. I don't know what to do if Daniel asks me out sometime in the future, because I don't want to agree and then feel all trapped and let him down, because that's what his last girlfriend did, she just told him that she wasn't ready for a boyfriend.
I've got this fear of being tied down, to anyone or anything. I hate rules and regulations which don't let me do my own thing. I'm scared that having a boyfriend could make me lose my sense of independence, and I don't think I could cope with that. Also, if things went badly between us, I don't think our friendship could get back to what it is now, and I can't lose what the two of us share right now.
Anyway, I'll leave you with a happier note :).
Dinner tonight was amazing. I had Potato and Parmesan Gnocci (a type of pasta) with Italian sausage for dinner, and a cheesecake-type thing for dessert. The meal was delicious, and the company was even better! Matthew Pavlich and Paul Haselby (two Fremantle Dockers players, for those who don't know) were there, I had a chat to them and got their autographs! They aren't my fave players but they are still pretty cool. Hase is awesome, really great guy. My mum told me that she heard he's single...
Nah, I think I'm just a bit young to be chasing after footy players (apart from maybe the young ones, some of the Dockers players are only 4 years older than me).
Or at least, I hope it is.
Listening to: The Way I Loved You by Taylor Swift
Gosh, anyone would think I'm obsessed with Taylor Swift or something xD
"He can't see the smile I'm faking
And my heart's not breaking
Cause I'm not feeling anything at all"
I've got this fear of being tied down, to anyone or anything. I hate rules and regulations which don't let me do my own thing. I'm scared that having a boyfriend could make me lose my sense of independence, and I don't think I could cope with that. Also, if things went badly between us, I don't think our friendship could get back to what it is now, and I can't lose what the two of us share right now.
Anyway, I'll leave you with a happier note :).
Dinner tonight was amazing. I had Potato and Parmesan Gnocci (a type of pasta) with Italian sausage for dinner, and a cheesecake-type thing for dessert. The meal was delicious, and the company was even better! Matthew Pavlich and Paul Haselby (two Fremantle Dockers players, for those who don't know) were there, I had a chat to them and got their autographs! They aren't my fave players but they are still pretty cool. Hase is awesome, really great guy. My mum told me that she heard he's single...
Nah, I think I'm just a bit young to be chasing after footy players (apart from maybe the young ones, some of the Dockers players are only 4 years older than me).
posted by Tegan @ 6:20 AM
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